Tuesday, November 16, 2010

There I Am...

Last week I submitted my name, picture and story to be on a website called Faces of Loss. I had only found this website a few months ago through another babylost mom and had really wanted to submit my story. It's basically a place where other babylost mommies can go to share their story and to meet others who have faced the same grief. It's showing your face to let everyone know you have suffered infant loss. I thought what an excellent way to bring others to my blog and to learn about my girls. I finally got around to e-mailing them and asking for my story to be put on their page. This morning, it was there.

I have to admit that my heart sunk a little when I saw my picture with the words, "I am the face of multiple losses" under it. I mean, of course I expected it to be on the site within a few days but when I really saw it then it hit me. Hard. I AM a face of loss. There are so, so many women out there who have lost their babies. I am one of them. I am a statistic. That sucks. It sucks that I had to find this website and it sucks that my face is on there. It sucks that other people have to read my story just to meet my babies.

However, I am thrilled..for lack of a better word...to get a chance to meet other babylost mothers. I think that we all share an unspoken bond that can never be broken. We have suffered the greatest of loss, our own children, and although that is something that is so traumatic and so heartbreaking, it is nice to have other people to talk to who have experienced the exact same pain. Just browsing other stories I found so many ladies who I can connect with who I don't even know. It's people I feel totally "safe" talking to about Grace and Olivia. If you are new to my blog please click the link to the side of my blog "To Start at the Beginning" and read about my babies. Thank you.

Here is the link with my story. You may have to scroll down until you find me.

Faces of Loss: Faces of Hope


Jessica said...

I did this too and as much as I was glad to have my story there it was so hard for me to see as well. Not the thing you want to be a spokesperson for. Sorry we both have a reason to be there.